| Fox Day 2007 |
[12 Apr 2007|12:15pm] |
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So Fox Day was a complete shit show and not in a good way. I now realize that I was a tad black out drunk. There are pieces of the day that I just don't remember and pictures on facebook that i don't remember being taken. I was having a lot of fun playing football. When i bent down to pick up the football a wave came and hit me in the face and knocked my glasses off. So now i'm blind and i have to study for a test on friday. I'm pretty much screwed. I'm upset at myself.
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| stream of thought |
[31 Mar 2007|01:31am] |
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It took me along time to think of stream of thought. Who named the comma? I wonder what it was like to be the last person to know the world wan't flat? Embarrasing? I don't know. I kinda hate boys. Things are always complicated. Magazines say that men are the simpler sex, but i don't know if that is true. The male PMS makes me giggle. Word choice is taking over my life. I like my language studies class, but sometimes I want to turn the english major off. I'm always interanlly correcting speech. Thinking to myself ohhh, I wonder do they know what that means? Or did they take real time to think up that response? Jeez! I thought I just heard the fire alarm and my heart skipped a beat. See... right there I just used a cliche. In your writing you should avoid overused cliches. And you should also avoid redundancy like i did there to make a point.
All right. I'm going to watch some of happy feet and then go to bed cause I have to be up in like 5 hours....
Good night all!!!
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| long time no see.... |
[23 Mar 2007|07:43pm] |
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It's been a good while since i've posted on LJ.
Things are going ok. I need to catch up in my classes but i'm still afloat. I have a job now and it takes up alot of my time. But to be honest I like the work. I like all the people that work there. The majority of the customers are really nice, but of course you get those assholes every now and then. I miss Michigan sometimes. Mostly the people and my parents. I'm excited to come home in summer and return to my semi-regular routines and visiting and such.
I like a boy. But of course there's a problem with it. As of 3 days ago he had a girlfriend. They've broken up but things have occured and now a new girl is vieing for his attention and I'm not entirely sure what to do. I want to tell him how I feel, but I don't at the same time. We spend every day together; everyone knows that we're best friends, but alot of people think/thought we were dating. He gives mixed signals so I'm kinda stumped .
In other news I'm going to be studying abroad in Australia next fall. I'm going to leave July 8 and return in November. I'm really excited about it. This is my chance. I've always wanted to live in another country and next fall is my frst chance!
I guess that's a quick update. I still hate my roommate. I just wish she would disappear.
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| undiscernable |
[01 Mar 2007|11:42pm] |
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I can't even describe to you how exhausted I am. My roommate situation hasn't gotten any better. And now with Katie coming to stay the week things are heating up. I have never met anyone as pessemistic and banal as my roommate. She fills my room with doom. I hate being in my own room. I tried to spice it up and make it happy, but she just hangs in the room like a noisome odor. I can't take it. I'm prolly in my room an hour out of the day (not counting sleep).
I just want to live with someone I like or alone. I can't take it anymore.
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| Autumn in February |
[16 Feb 2007|08:11pm] |
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Things are going pretty well. Balancing school and work is kinda hard but I'm doing it. I'm busy and that's what I like.
It's been chilly the past few days. It really feels like Fall here. There are leaves on the ground and it's windy. It's so odd. Everyone keeps saying it's freezing. I can't help but giggle at them. These silly Flordians don't know what freezing is all about.
I guess I'm all done. I don't have much to say. I just thought I would check in here on good old LJ.
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| I didn't need a reality check... thanks anyways |
[09 Feb 2007|11:06pm] |
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I'm sad/upset.
I feel like I have nowhere to go.
I feel alone.
What am I supposed to do?
All I can think to do is suck it up and shut up.
I really hate that I'm the girl version of the nice guy. I'm the girl that is a good friend to guys, but I never get anywhere. I'm always supportive because that comes first. My friends' needs come before my own. No matter what. I don't want to be selfish and I don't want to be rejected again.
I don't know how many times I've said this... I just want someone to like me for who I am, inside and out. When will it happen? Who knows. But I hope it's soon.
p.s. It makes me really happy, but really sad that the only valentine I'll get this year is from my best friend.
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| Home sweet, home |
[09 Feb 2007|12:00pm] |
I've been missing home alot lately. I think it's a mixture of my period and being sick. Whenever I'm sick I want my mom to take care of me and bring me soup. I have friends here that have been taking great care of me but nothing beats your mom's loving.
Things were going really really well the last couple of days. Then all of a sudden, thing just went wrong. I had a breakdown and was balling my eyes out the other day and yesterday I found out that i have a sinus infection.
I'm tired of typing for now. I'll update more later.
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| Just keep swimming! |
[05 Feb 2007|09:29pm] |
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Yay!!
I got the job at Taylor's Pharmacy! Today was my first day. I think I'm really going to like it there. I have to answer and feild 9 phone lines. Tend to customers i.e. cash them out, get perscriptions and answer questions. And other miscellaneous jobs around the pharmacy and card shop. All the people that work there seem really nice and really funny. I'm so happy. I like having a job. It gives me a sense of urgency and something to be responsible for and really just a sense of duty. I like it. I like it alot!
Other than that things are great. I've been having great days recently. And I think it's because I haven't been cooped up in my room with my roommate. I've been with people I like that make me laugh and people (more like one person) that I trust and talk to. I've been sleeping in his room that past like 5 nights. We like sleepovers (and not in that way). He has a girlfriend. Poo on that! But I'm happy being his friend. We get along really well and have a ton of things in common. It's just a good thing.
I must be off. I have homework to do. I'm avoiding it. But I thought it was time to give an update!
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| Meet me where the angels collide |
[01 Feb 2007|06:46pm] |
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Things are going along. I had an interview for a job I really want. It is a receptionist position at a pharmacy. I would be handling everything... 9 phone lines, cleaning, answering questions, cashing people out, ect. Just like a busy Bob Evans morning only more intense. I really hope I get it.
Other than that school work is fine. Tons of reading. I think I'm handling it ok. I feel overwhelmed sometimes, but I just make a list and go from there. My roommate on the other hand just flips out when things aren't in order and just complains. Today she didn't go to her lab which in the end I'm sure is going to cause her more work which I'll have to deal with in the future. She is so pessimistic. Sometimes I just want to yell at her,
"Yes Gabi you are going to fail with that attitude!" But I don't. I keep my cool and keep telling her things will be fine.
I had the best sleep last night. I woke up feeling refreshed. I was groggy, but not tired. I was able to function as soon as I got out of bed. I like when that happenes. I wonder if it was the claritin that did it?
Anyway I have homework that needs to be completed. My friends and I are supposed to be going to Club Paris tonight. We'll see what happens.
p.s. I'm not getting kicked out tonight!
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| when will the time come |
[29 Jan 2007|09:00pm] |
I would love for once to have feelings for someone that I'm allowed to like. It's frustrating to like someone that has a girlfriend. Jeez oh petes!
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| Hola mis agimos! |
[29 Jan 2007|09:18am] |
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Puerto Rico here I come!!!
My Dad just told me this morning that I can go to Puerto Rico for spring break. OMG! It's going to be great. I'm so excited.
p.s. I don't really like my roommate. It's a tad complicated. I do, but I don't. I'll have to dedicate an entry about her.
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| Yay!!! |
[28 Jan 2007|07:23pm] |
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There is a chance that I can go to Puerto Rico for spring break!
I'm really excited. This semester is going alot better than last. I've made 3 new friends that I like alot and we hang out alot. Things are going well.
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| "But you're not honest and you never could be" |
[24 Jan 2007|04:04pm] |
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I feel pretty down in the dumps. It's a mixture of confusion, disappointment, lonliness and anger. All I wanted was some solification. Something to show that I mean something to you. It's not that big of a deal. I just want to feel loved. You said you missed my laugh. That made me feel really happy. But then you turn around and say the stuff you said before was just a joke. I thought you were serious. I really need to cut off ties with you. But I'm sure it's just going to turn out like Migel. One day something will happen and you will disappear from my life.
Is it too much to ask to have a good relationship with someone? You like them; they like you. Simple. But things are never simple. One person likes the other more. One person doesn't want to commit. One person likes someone that's unavailable and probably never will be. Or things just aren't at the right time and place. Sometimes I feel like it's never going to happen. I don't want to be alone. No one does. But it seems that is the outcome for me as of now.
I know it's not true, but I feel like I'm not good enough.
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| early AM thoughts |
[22 Jan 2007|07:46am] |
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I have class in aproximatley 13 minutes. It's really early. I don't really understand why people are always waking up extra early. My Mother does it. I don't think I'll ever get it. ohhh, well.
I went to a church youth group thing last night. I'm still not sure where I stand on the whole religion thing. All the people were really nice. We had a good discussion and plenty of laughter. I think I'm gonna go back a few more times. And I know that I'm going to keep feeding the homeless on Thursday nights.
Well I need to make some oatmeal and go to Ethics.
p.s. I miss you guys alot alot.
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| it's just a ball of confusion |
[18 Jan 2007|01:45pm] |
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Now I'm thinking I might stay at Rollins. I know that I don't have any really good friends and I always feel like the third wheel, but I do love my education. I really love the small class size and the relationships with my professors. I don't want TAs and 100 people in my classes. And I know that I'm getting an excellent education. A better education then I would get a EMU or MSU. It's a different kind of education that I like. But I'm also afraid of letting people down. I've heard so many times that I should please myself and do what makes me happy, but if I did I would feel selfish. I just want everyone to be happy. One of my good friend's said that you can't hang around people and not begin to be like them. I don't want to be like the kids here. But I don't think I'll change.
We'll see what happens.
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| a new thought |
[15 Jan 2007|07:13pm] |
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I was talking to a Quirine yesterday. I was explaining to her about transferring. I told her how I wanted to go to USF and be near Laura. But that I couldn't because my parents wanted me to come home. And also about how everyone in Michigan is dead set on me coming back and it's probably best for everyone. She thinks I should try and talk to my parents and let them know I want to go to Tampa. Quirine thinks I should put what I want first. And I guess she's right. But my Mom and Dad really want me to come back and so does everyone else. I can't really say no to that. I don't want to let everyone down. At the same time though I want to be close to everyone. Then again I want to give living down here another chance. I think Rollins isn't the best place for me. I want to give another place a try. And I think with Laura near me, it will be better.
p.s. I want to find what I feel for him down here. I don't want to go back and see him and hurt every time I do.
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| a good Saturday |
[13 Jan 2007|06:48pm] |
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It was so nice out today. The sun was shining, but it wasn't too hot. There was a nice breeze too. I sat out in the sun that faded in and out behind clouds listening to music and doing a crossword puzzle. I love days like today. Maybe tomorrow will be like today. That would be wonderful.
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| immersion |
[10 Jan 2007|01:40pm] |
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Tonight is when we will go to downtown Orlando and interact witht he homeless and sleep at the homeless shelter. I'm a bit nervous. We should be pretty safe. But the Parramore district isn't a great part of town. This class has been eye-opening. I'll write more about it later.
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| some funny quotes from someone i know and love |
[08 Jan 2007|06:14pm] |
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"I have an alcohol addition"
"Get that nut, girl!"
"Yeah, these are the off brand of sharpie... peppermint... that's dumb."
"Mason, that says permanent!"
"He's dead, Michele!!!! It doesn't matter!!!"
I'm sure more will surface and when they do I'll post them here.
p.s. the first person to guess who said these things gets a cookie!
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| warm breeze |
[07 Jan 2007|11:37pm] |
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i need to make a correction.
Florida should be known as the devil's armpit only during the hours that see the sun.
because night is beautiful (most nights). it's breezy and warm.
gotta love flipflops and cricket noises.
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